Who am I????????????

I am a child of God. We hear it.  We sing it.  We read these words.  But do we believe it and what it means, or should mean to each of us?  He is our Father.  We are His children.  Neal Maxwell once taught that if we really understood how involved He is in our lives, we would be totally amazed.  Elder Jeffery Holland said that he knows, and then he paused with a far away look in his eyes, then he returned to the present and he reiterated once again, "he KNOWS" how much Father loves each one of us.

When we think of our Eternal Father, what thoughts go through our minds.  What attributes, what words describe Him?  When we pray to Him, do we envision a powerful God who directed the creation of this world?  Do we think of a Being who is running the world and involved in all aspects of this earth?  Do we think of Kolob and what Joseph Smith preached about Him and His Being?  What goes through our minds as we think about Him as we "talk" with Him in our prayers near our bedside, while driving the car, in the middle of a test or trial?  

Do we feel afraid of a Being all powerful, all knowing, and all present to everyone who is praying at the same instant as we are?  Do we doubt that He can understand what we are going through?  Are we hesitant to ask certain thing, do we feel embarrassed with our weaknesses?  

When we pray and ask for something repeatedly and question if anyone is listening when there are no answers coming, nor feelings felt from our Father?  

Whenever I feel some of those feelings, I try to get away, alone, where I won't be bothered by others, by the phone, nor anything else.  I sit, or kneel, or just begin pondering about what it means to be a Father.  Then I think about my Father in Heaven.  I don't think about His life, His pressures, nor His thoughts being elsewhere.  I think about me being in His presence, having a personal interview with my beloved Father.  I let scriptures flow through my mind reminding me of His work and glory for Bill Partridge.  He is interested in me, where I am, what I am thinking, and what is going on in my life.  I look into His eyes and can feel His love, His understanding of my  life and problems, even my weaknesses and I see His never ending love and interest in me.  I almost feel like shedding tears for the love that His eyes portray for me.  I can almost feel His arms around me telling me that He knows how I feel. 

He reminds me of our Savior when He asked, "let this cup pass from me, nevertheless, not my will but thine be done." He reminds me that I will struggle, I will cry, I will be tested, and I will fail.  I will feel forsaken, and I will feel so alone.  But He smiles and says that He will never be far from me and all these things are for my good.  They are preparing me for later in mortality, as well as for the after life.  

I take great comfort from His words, decide I can carry on, and return to my lonely life with hope and knowledge that my Father is, indeed, aware of me and is not far from ne.  Who am I?  I am a child of my Eternal Father.